This is for you Yaotshing. She kept screaming superman up until I started video taping her. She takes wearing a cape very seriously. :)
Kashia has been waking up frequently crying out for her daddy. She usually looks over at his pillow and cries for him. Sometimes she will wake up from nightmares, sometimes she just misses him when she wakes up. It's so hard for me to comfort her sometimes. This was one of the first times I caught her crying out for her dad.. I know it's kind of cruel to show this, but I want Yaotshing to know just how much she does miss him.
I just started receiving letters from Yaotshing. It is difficult for me to hear how things are going for him over there. Not that he is particularly struggling with anything but that certain drama is created for the sake of making the environment intense for the soldiers. However I'm saddened to hear, it doesn't exactly surprise me. We were expecting these kinds of games, and I know Yaotshing is praying for strength and peace of mind to stay above it all. His letters are actually quite funny, I'm happy he's able to keep things light even when facing adversity. Although I can't send any letters yet, I have been writing letters on the side and hoping to send them later this week when I finally get his address.
He also called me out of the blue when he arrived at Basic Training (The first week and a half was apparently processing?) and let me know that he had arrived. I was so surprised by his call I was actually speechless. I had started crying dry tears (I seriously cannot cry anymore) and speaking incomplete sentences while walking around in circles. My heart literally leapt when I heard his voice. Unfortunately we only spoke for less than a minute.
I was most afraid of having to shovel and use the snow blower. The last snow fall before Yaotshing left was by far the heaviest and hardest to deal with. I'm so grateful he was here to help us dig our way out of the house. Since then surprisingly there has not been any significant snow fall. PRAISE GOD!
Also I've been using pity to get Hoxav to spend more quality time with me. He usually is tied to his phone or laptop with his headphones on. It's been hard in the last two years to get his attention and keep it for any amount of time. Lately I've been asking for some family time together and when I see that he might decline, I say "Come on Hoxav, do you want me to cry again?" and then he usually will laugh, but agree to set his things aside and sit with me and talk for a while, watch a movie or get out of the house and run some errands. He is a lifesaver. Without his company, Jason's help with Kashia during the weekdays and Pajjar and Johan watching Kashia while I'm working at DGS, I don't know how I would make it. I know a lot of people have made sacrifices to help us along this process, and we will always be grateful and indebted.
Well that's it as far as updates go for now. Yaotshing I know you won't be able to read this more a few more months, but I'll try to update videos and pictures here.
We love you.
ps here are some more songs I've recently added to my missing you playlist:
I seriously hate John Legend.
